i noe it was too fast to get happi..
omg its onli 9 days and im gonna miss my sweetheart.
i noe we have gone thru too much shit to tell
fights,arguements and tiffs...
at the end of the day when u hug me everything is forgotten..
and ur smile stays in my heart!
your double digit days have become single
u and i noe how much we gonna miss each other..
u may have cheated me and tried to play behind my back but something
in you just makes me forget all that youve done..

if we were friends i would not realli have much problem missing u
but we were kinda more than that..
that the mistake we both did
we just gave away too fast.
even yesterday when you told me its 9 more days and kissed me on my forehead...
i didnt feel much..
but today as i blog i just tear away....
its gonna be difficult

the next when i come school..
see the place that you always sit at..
the locker that you always stuff your things with..
the balcony where you always sit and crap with me..
the building that both of us loved and used to laugh at it..
the computer lab that you always work at..
the hug you always give me..
the pat that you give me on my face whenever i sleep on ur shoulder..
the aircon control that both of us use to argue about...
the table that we both always sit and study at..
the library that we both use to hide whenever shiva find for us.
the hindi songs that you use to listen and bluetooth to me
the wonderful birthday present you gave me
the cute message you wrote for me in my diary
so much more....i just have to move on...

till today ive not mentioned about you being mine. our friendship turned into love for a certain period and now its gonna be vanished but honestly your better off as a friend that a lover..
im gonna miss you darlin and i love you - - - -

HAPPI DEEPAVALI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yay! its here..
deepavali= cookies+food+MONEY!
haha this year my collection kinda increased!yea!
so saturday and sunday was all just about cleaning the damn house..
so last minute and i guessed i lost a lil kg there..
my mum was like delegating me all the work which was pissing off but yea no choice cause
im the onli one who does it without shoutin or arguing! my sister was just plain lazy!

sunday did some last min shopping and the house was still messy so mum and dad were yelling at each other and yeah somehow it settled..

MONDAY MORNING! haha! deepavali morning did the religious routine..had prayers and yum yum breakfast! then went to my grandmother's house! its a annual thing! my lil cousins were there and so cute in their suit!
after that went to my aunty's place and i love her prawns! i always go there just to eat that prawns!!!!!! yum yum!
so came back home and my mum had to start her cooking! last min my father's friends wanted to come over to visit my dad and yeah so had to cook...
but the shockin thing was that my cousiNS SURPRISED ME!!!!!!!!
they GAVE a SURPRISE VISIT to my house!hahah! so sweet! a lil while later the whole house was crowded!hah! we were actually suppose to go visiting to people's house but yeah since a last min shuffle we had to stay back!aah!

so yeah were crapping around.then around 12 me my sis and my dad's partner went down to the play ground to play crackers!and since it was his birthday we wished him. my dad's partner is like late 20s..hahah! and my preminition came true. my dad's partner has a crush on my sister!hahah! and yaya man a lil chemistry worked out yea!haha! goodie luck!haah!
my path is kinda clear now..


*thanks mani shiva CHERYL and junsulo..
u should noe for wat..cant realli explain here much!
love ya darlins!ahaah!
=) deepavali rocked this year....
pics soon!

SARANYA has gone mad..
seriously!

it feels like ive been made use of..
its a sucky feeling la
when u all are bored u need me to entertain u
then when another person comes into the pic u will just drift off...
i just cant be a social escort...

sigh....if my studies go well my social life sucks..
if my social life goes a lil well my studies become sucky..
oh man..anyway its a lil more days..
i just wanna study and move on..

my nites have become boring.
i just dun have the mood to speak to anyone like last time
it just gets more and more frustrating as the nites go by...
sometimes when my phone vibrates i just feel like not answering...
it depends on the person calling..
if i feel like talkin to the person i will..
or else i will ignore..

ive changed and my change has become more nasty.
im tellin it myself..
if im too nice everyone takes advantage of me
my policy is to give in to everyone and not reject anyone but i just realised it does not work for me...
its the best to be alone..
i will just wait for my cup of tea..
=)

i can never laugh for a veri long time cause i will have to end up cryin the next moment! seriously somethings is gone in my life..

so yeah this week has started off kinda pissing and too much of tears have been shed over two particular people. but after a long while i have to accept it and live with it.i cant alter or do anything much yea! just do my own stuff and move on! it takes veri long for people to understand me i guess... even my dad and mum dun understand me. wat can i do? its not like i fixed my character this way. screw me and my character. its realli fucked up to feel this way!

everything i say these days is a mistake for everyone.and im not a FUCKIN EMO QUEEN for umpteen times!'
i just blog wats realli happening to me and if u think im an emo then dun bother reading on!

school was my happiness for a long time but now im realli dreading to come to school and see his face. after knowing wat has happen and the fact that you just needed me for ur pleasure is sucky to know. im super pissed with myself . where did my brains go to? wat the hell was i thinkin at that point? just givin on myself off...
screw...

i just wanan be alone now. getiing into a relationship is not a big issue now. i mean yea the feeling to be in one and be pampered and be concerned by someone is a nice feeling but after all this issues..its the best i be alone..



i noe i liked u and we cant get together. after yesterday i have decided to let matters rest us and let u move on to
get someone better.dun worri i wun curse u and all the more i will move away from you..
you should noe wat im tryin to say...
let me say this for the last time...

RANDOM RANDOM SHOT SHOT=)

i hate it when people tell me wat to do and advise me on my own self!

im who i am and no one has the right to tell me wat to do..

damn it! it can really suck..

im not a person who will rebel and tell im a perfecto unless needed...

anyway its so out of nowhere shit happens...

you can really be a pain but i shall not tell u..

hopefully u understand it yourself honey..

if ure guilty...dun ask...

=(

OMG OMG!!!!!
summarisation of saranya's week!haha!

mon,tue,wed:
mugged for paper 4 exam like siao! was pratically freaking out!hahh!


thursday:
PAPER 4 exam!met clown at 5 at TM and that swine still had mood to eat and the best part to wear fake eyelashes and go for exam!hahah!!so yeah ate with her and to convince her to take her medicine was the worst! i told her if she drank i will buy chocolate for her and as promised i bought for her!went for exam! freaked out for 2 hours and I PASSED!!!!hahah! YAY MAN!
3 more papers to go in DEC!haha then came back home and met up with my cousins!hahah!
came home...was on the phone till late night! but yeah the happi nite was spoilt apparently with me and my stupid mouth and my comments!

friday:
had p7 class and clown as usual cant keep her mouth shut had to be so noisy during class!haha sorri babe! and the after class i went to meet up with kalai aka KV at singapore flyer. it was my treat for his birthday!haha! yeah so ate at POPEYES! after so long our cravings were satisfied! had a great meal and then went out to slack at the greek theatre which was nearby! and after that we walked all the way back to my school from ESPLANADE to RAFFLES PLACE!!!!! omg! and i got 8 blisters after wearing high heels! KV was sweet enough to wait and help me out! SMOOCHIES! haha! came back school!
me sharon simran and mani were practically crapping arounD! all of us just did not have the mood to study!haha!

saturday:
Happi bdae MUMMI!
my mum's 50th bdae! so wished her and then we both went to granny's house and then all of us went lil india for deepavali shopping!frrom like 2pm till 9pm! ARGH! i was so happi i bought myself a tube dress and a nice suit which cost a bomb but mummy dearest bought for me!hahah!
still need to get the accessories still!hahah!and then came home and then me my dad and mum went for supper!haha!we went balestiar at some food court and had supper! CRAB YUMMY!hahah! my sister is not in singapore so we did not realli had the mood to celebrate without her!hahah! i miss her!

sunday:
went to SIA office to finalise my air ticket.and the date and some stuff!and then we went sim lim square to get some electronic stuff! and daddy promised me a PSP slim sooner this month!hahah! but i was thinkin of gettin apple I touch! hmm...he;'s leavin it to me to decide!hah!a
and then went courts to get some stuff came home..had lunch and slacked all the way..hahah! and then at night as usual made my phone calls out! but of course the first one was to KV...was chatting with him and yah...sooner i kinda got pissed with somethin and so i decided to go and sleep and not entertain any call...once i woke up i saw the phone i had 15 missed calls from sangee dear.hahah! sorri babe! and i noe wats the news...congrats honey!hahah!


yeah tats about my whole week!
gtg..enjoy!




After much complains and naggings from miss cheryl i decided to blog!
haha!

nuthin interesting has been going on in my life so far onli fights,arguements,misunderstandings and i dun wish to elaborate on it ! im sick of it and decide to leave it as it is!

deepavali is coming but im not excited for it till im done with my p4 this thursday and that will decide whether my deepavali will be a fun one or not! sad rite?! i noe!
i jus wanna pass and dun ask me why i even failed at the beginning! its not like i prayed and purposely failed it!argh! sick! it just so happens that i failed and i cant help it but to just retake the damn paper!
its sucky!

saturdays are the most sickening days of the weekend...morning come and i need to go my grandma house and the whole day i will stuck there doing nothin! my grandma is so paranoid that she does not allow us watch tv for more than 2 hours cause she thinks the tv will be heated up and will bursT! omg! and yeah the fan should not be on or else electricity bill will increase! Like WTH! get a life man! and so the whole day is gone there! and then some arguements abt the maid comes up! ARGH!

thursday was fun! cheryl aka clowny that super free soul was willing to follow me to lil india! i had to get some stuff there and so she follows me! going out with her is like going out with a small kid la! u wun noe where she go and whether she will go missing! retard! haha!so in the bus was the onli place she was kinda quiet but once she got down her nonsense started!haha! we had to cross the big junction at lil india so i just told her to follow me and she was practically screamin i dun wanna DIE!!!! hah! and there were some pigeons there and again she goes yelling! she was screamin at every pigeon! we walked to my dad shop and then tried to swindle some money but unsuccessful!haha! then went to get my stuff and came back to disturb my dad and he asked me to follow him go buy some products and so followed and came along that pig!
now during this period at lil india they are having bazzars for deepavali and so they hang some decorative items and some of it have bells and stuff! that clown went around shaking every one which consisted of bells and she will shake and give out this evil laughter like she has successfully done somethings great!hahah!
i just love to disturb and tease her!hahahahh!
CHERYL!!!!! u deserve this!hahahah!

yeah so now at schooL! stuck here and gotta study my ass off!
ciaoz!

SARANYA RAMALINGAM Is FREAKIN OUT!!!!!
omg its like onli 9 more days to my paper 4 exam!
and im slackin!
im so sick of studyin it over and over again..same chapter and ive been doin the mcq questions for the 15th time! aRGH!
but im still so unusure..haha!

yesterday(monday) went to school to study.i just cant study at home! so came at around 11am and then mani that pig came and we both were studyin!and then he wanted to go chinatown to get some stuff so he was like askin his guide(me) along in a case he gets losT!haha! so went with him and shopped around like mad! then walked back to school! ARGH! tired and when i reached school time for me to go back and sangee messages me to meet her at RP mrt in 15 mins time and TADA she appears there! so ok slack with her and went TCC to slack and we tried their potatoe wedges with cheese dip! was freakin AWESOME!hahah! then my sis joined us and we three went yakity yakity yak yak!hahah! and poof go home!

today! woke up late as usuaL! and when i woke up cheryl messaged me that she's ready to leave..i look at the time and yeah i was super late! rushed to the toilet had a shower..no matter how late i will still take time to have a good shower!hah! and then i called cheryl and she said she was there at inter so i just hurried down took a taxi to interchange!haha! met that pig! then went school!
attended p9 class! TAXATION! ARGH! so boring!
then that pig mani asks me follow him go redhill to register his exams!hahah! so the two of us go and as usual he craps and all his retarded noises!so noisy to go out with hiM!
then reached there and the most stupidest thing we both did is to take a taxi and told the uncle Ei2 building and he went "oh i dun noe..can u show me the way! "and thats when both of us got into the taxi! so i was super pissed but mani was so nice..he just held me and told relax dear..so i got fed up and i told the uncle just go back to the mrt and when we got down we saw the sign board and we both were staring at each other!hahah! so we walked and registered and came back schooL! and now im waiting for my sister to call me!
gonna meet her sooN!hahah!

toodles!

most of the times in my life..i dun listen to people..
cause i hate to listen to people...

u cant force someone to do something
the main mistake is that i fall too fast into everything and later on i will regret
and i still dun learn my lessons in life...
yeah im not matured enough at times.
but i still know wat revolves me..

dun teach me wat to do...
just do it yourself..
no one likes to hear to advices and so do i..
im not a wall to be motionless...
im alive.....

anyway i just realise that things around me are kinda cliche...
im just gonna act along..
its no point me trying to change anything in this retarded world of mine...
not everything is my fault..
i make mistakes yes i do...
but not every mistake is my fault..

its easy to show fingers at..
how much more blame can i take..
i agree everything just for the sake ur close to me..
but from now on im not gonna bother...
i will just be immune....
i cant go on any longer...

everytime i lament and grumble i blame myself for comin to noe u....
fuck off my life u ass...


F****** do exist man! seriouslY!
it seriously sucks to be in my shoes..i cant show my anger to anyone..
onli cheryl knows the whole shit and she understands wat im going thru..
im so in the urge to get it down ...

u woke me up and asked whether i was going
and i said yea and asked if u were?
and u said yes dear i will see u there..
in full hopes and excitement i go..
once i reach i message u..
and after 1/2 hr later u msg
im sorri dear...im not comin...

there goes my friday! down the drain...
i dunnoe whther you were tryin to trick me by saying prayers..
why? why? why?
is it a mistake for the both of us...
or maybe its not fated..
it just makes me cry...
i cannot cry now.....
i had enuff cryin for you...
conincedently the other party is not here as well..


maybe wat im thinkin maybe happenin there...
or like wat cheryl said..
since one did not come the other one decided not to come?
wTf is actualli running in ur mind..
my options are open wide..
even now i cant hold back my tears...
this is the last place i would ever wanna cry at..
maybe hers was better than mine..
or more worthful...
fuck...

i hate you and i dun wanna care about u anymore..
just another 2 months more..i wil withstand the pain
after that ur gone and im also gone...
MALE CHAUVANIST PIG>>>>and your FUCKED up attitude!


ps: thanks cheryl...u undertstand how i feel and we both sometimes end up in the same shit!thanks honey!

CHERYL AKA CLOWNY!

ok today was great! went out with clowny cheryl to celebrate her advance bdae party cause apparently that swine took her self declared holiday for her bdae and wishes not to come school tomorrow so decided to meet her and give her a "small" bdae present ....

its actually a bolster from precious thots...well her 3 precious souls bought it for her..me ,mani and shiva..hahah! hope u like it babe!

so yeah met at TAMPines AT 11+ then headed over to bedok..she was kinda shocked with how small her present was and her onli freakin fear was how to carry it all over bedok! but yea....she managed...we both were hungry as usual wanted to go botak jones and since both of us were unsure of the place we decided to go another day so we just ate at the nearby coffee shop! the food was awesome...then headed over with that vain pot to get her manicure done...ahahah! and i was like sittin down and admiring her nails!haha!

then later on we both wanted to like rebond our fringe and so walked to her prominent saloon but it was super crowded so cancelled that plan and as we were walkin we saw this place that said eyebrow shaping and both of us were like lookin at each other!haha so we entered and decided to give a try!
cheryl went first and she was freakin out..hahah she was givin out small cries!hahah! she would have cried if it was a lil while more...and it was my turn next....it was super ticklish!hahah! but yeah kinda painful...haha! and i think she kinda screwed my brows a lil at the side....

and that pig was grumbling of being hungry so walked to KFC and we shared a meal!haha! ok both of us are really good at eating but that swine can realli eat alot!hahah!and so came back home and gonna get my ass off and mug!hahah! argh im freakin out....

my exam is in 2 weeks time and im so relaxed! god save me....

and not forgetting yesterday i met up with my darlins! md and dd and her siblings!
after so long we were crappin around at starbucks till 9+pm...then walked home alone..
it was dark along the parkway and i realli wished you were there...


ps: i love u and i cannot deny...u noe that...

You've just stepped onto my territory.

I'm just a little nobody...
Saranya
18
26 August 1989
Single