OOOOOOOOOO LA LA!



OKK! things have kinda got better at my lil home here and im kinda happi!
and before i start i must thank...



PRIYA DARL for messaging me and being so concerned for me! thanks sweetheart!and made me feel so good after your message! love ya babe!

CHERYL CLOWNY for always making me laugh at the way she makes her messages sound serious! and also being concerned for me and being there everytime! i shall treat u your fav AJISEN RAMEN ONE DAY!!hahah!

SINDHU DARL for you sweet message and letting me that you gals are always there for me and your support!haha! love ya babe!

MAdie BABIE for always being such a sweetheart and being there for me! and ur lovely message on my tag board! thanks honey!


on monday nite my father came back home from his gathering and i was kinda scared that something may happen between my parents ,and true enuff they were arguing till 4am!

i could not sleep...was tearing everytime i hear a shout or raise in the voice. i dunnoe how my gundu sister can still sleep so soundly!



yeah at 4 plus both of them went to sleep and i kinda slept too! next morning my mum woke us up and she sounded ok! and she was pinching my dad to wake up!

i was kinda shocked! like a few hours ago u two were yelling and now u two are ok!

i was HAPPI!!!! so went to my grandma house to visit my uncle!

then came back home and my parents wanted to go to BREWERKS!!!!!!!



haha! so we went there...they were having happy hour promotion!

so the four of us went and settled down and started ordering! my sister was like not drinking alcohol! such a swine! SHE didnt want! onli me my mum and dad drank!

then my cousin and her mum joined us!

I had:

4 glasses of bourbon cola..

1 glass of jackdaniel with pepsi..

1 hot chocolate

JAMBALAYA..some rice dish



and u can imagine wat else my family and cousin ordered but watever it is the BILL WAS A BOMB!!!!!

altogether it came up to $415.00++!

and i was OMG!!!!

we were there from 1230pm till 6pm!hahah!



and then my cousin wanted to go shopping! so my parents dumped us at TM and we went to check out the mall! mostly all the shops were closed and yeah..

then while waiting for another cousin who was suppose to join us! me my sister and sutha decided to go simpang bedok!!!!hahah!
so sutha's bf came to fetch us and we went to EAT SUPPER!!!!! sangee joined us later on!hahah!
we stayed out till 11+pm...came home so tired!
but some how i could not sleep! i was on the phone with my friend till 4am!!!!!
ROAR!!!!!!!!
tired tired!!!!!

WILL THIS HAPPINESS LAST??

I LOVE YOU ...PA,MA and AKKA....

* i dun care who the fuck cares that my blog is too emo. if u aint bothered just get ur ass of here..u aint know wat happens in my shoe so just back off.

SARANYA RAMALINGAM...
..has been avoided by
..does not wanna get involved in anyone's life
..wants to be alone
..wants to show how capable she is
..does not wanna cry or whine more...
..shall remain more silent and watch...
..will have her dreams achieved
..will get __ __ _________ __


results are a month away and im kinda freakin out when i think about it!
i dunn wanna take the new CAT syllabus..its tough..
god!
oh yeah anyway i realli miss my cousins at this moment!
one of my cousin seems to be so aloof now and both of us seem to have no proper communication,which is kinda sad.. when some other person get into the picture everything is being avoided..

sometimes i just feel i give in too much to people..
im just scared when people insult of scold me..i just dun seem to have the guts to tell them off..i will just shut it within myself and later on will sit down nd tear and blame it on myself..
argh! it realli sucks and some assholes use this as an advantage!

damn...this blog can suck...hope to have a happier pose...

SCREWED!



some things do happen for a reason i guess..

i can never think for myself at times..

i always depend on others too much

and i regret like shit...



i think im matured,

independent,

able to think for myself...

but i guess imnot..

im still a small kid for my family members..



anyway movin on its exactly another 29 days more to my RESULTS

and its scary..

i just wanna pull through and i dun wish to repeat and face the new syllabus of CAT

just wanna start with ACCA!

its also time my family realise that im aint stupid..

and im not just wasting their money..



i need to seriously complete my driving by april,

and start studying,

but i wan a part time job till july!



im reaLLI gonna souns racist but i dun understand why they need bilingual chinese..

they need people whom can speak chinese..wat the hell..

and a interview i went for...after seeing me she asked me whther i can speak chinese and i was like NO!

and she said ok i will call back...

and for 2 weeks no call, i called back the company and they appointed some other gal who...

and she an N level student and she was a CHINESE so they appointed her..

FUCK! im sorri to those who are chinese and read my blog..

you may hate me but yeah...

it sucks to be an indian at times..

we are the minority and yeah but i think we are not that dumb to be not qualified for the job..

SUCKS! ive applied for more that 15 companies and none of them have replied!

its ok..i will just have to live with this shit!



tomorrow is sunday..

SUNDAY mornings are like HELL days!

i hate it....but yeah..

im just gonna control everything and move on..

hopefully some sense is knocked into that thick skull of hers sooner this year!



life has to go on and..





HAPPY BELATED BDAE TO SHIVA!!!!!!









ok my mood just got spoiled...
so i just wanna blog it out!

u message me..
and ur message goes like
everything is done between us..
tat i noe a long time ago..

u spoiled my mood when i was out yesterday when i was enjoyin myself
i just sat in one corner when the whole lot were enjoyin infront of me..
its just you and your stupidity..

i just wanna be alone now..
no relationships..
no dates..
nothing...i need to settle down myself first
i get everyting confused and am not clear myself..
ive lost it on you and i dun love anyone anymore..
i mean it...

OOOOOOOO cousins outing rocked man!
awesome outing once again!
i realli enjoyed myself!

so first met sangee and took bus to lil india meet our lovely bro
hahah! and we spotted the bag he was carrying had somethin interesting
ahah!
so yeah then went clarke QUAY
and we started our session! DRINKED the nite away
my bro's friends came and some of our cousins..
it was kinda dull at the beginning cause all of them seemed aloof..
but later on we decided and decided and decide and we went

CLUBBIN!!!!!!!!!!!
@ club celebrity's
and yeah since my bro knows the owner we had no cover charge!
yeah and ordered more drinks..
all of us were kinda gone there but yeah...
danced like mad
at the end left the club at 6am...
went to my bro's house and watched tv till nine..so in the end did not sleep!

at 10am bath and changed to go dance class...
yeah and then now im home..so shagged and tired
YAWN! i need some sleep!

so yeah I LOVE MY COUSINS!!!!!!!!!

life in 2009 has just started for me..
getting hold of my friends and meeting up with them..
nothing interesting has happened..

the week has been kinda ok!
MONDAY was awesome! morning went for interview but no reply...
evening went out met my cousinS!! YEAH! i miss my brother so much...
after india trip,monday was the day i met him..
and then gave him his bdae present and he was so touched!haha!
and he decided to bring us out on SATURDAY!!!!!! YAY!

tuesday was not bad...went to school met junsulo and SHIVA! haha after so long met up with the two piggys and yeah we kinda crapped around and i realli miss my school. and i just realised that one of our admirers that me,junsulo and the kangeries were crazy about left the school! so upsettinG!haha! and so yeah spent the day with them then came home..

wednesday was fuckin wasteful....went CPF building for interview and they said will call back
i can just wait for ten years the call wun come back.
then met up with my friend.....missed her... walked around with her and came back home.

thursday was slackin the whole day and then met up with KV at tampines mall.. then the call came in saying that my tution got cancelled and so POOF my mood was gone... its was so blank after that ...my mood was gone and KV had to go home so yeah came back home and watched TV!

TODAY im just sitting the whole day at home..in the morning went doctor after so much scolding from my parents for my eye. My left eye has been tearing and it gives a pain once in a while so yeah...and the doctor tells me that something i ate, or some dust particles went into my eyes that has caused this allergy! what the hell!
so yeah and now here i am sitting down and typing my blog awaY!....


Ps: the new year is here. watever happened last year let it go, let things work out well for
us if u want..but if ur not interested just tell me and leave me,after seeing and understanding your character i just dun feel good this way.its either you have to say it or do it...im sorry sometimes i just fake it so that it wun go bad...lets change..

oh man!

my blog has been accumulating dust!

im back from INDIA!!!!!!!!

YAY!

i did not realli like the country! itwas so noisy and crowded

and its so not like wat i expected! i got homesick the 2nd day itself!

im spoilt wat to do?!



yeah so came back and then my cousins from malaysia were here so had to entertain them

and all this while my house computer is giving problems

so kinda brainwashed mother to lend me her lappy!

ahah!



before i start anything





HAPPI NEW YEAR toTO EVERYONE!

HAVE A BLESSED 2009!

so this year i would wanna:

be a cat graduate in june!

start with ACCA in july!

complete my driving!

understand people better esp fussy souls!

dun be complain queen ...

dun be so noisy!

more bondin with my family and my cousins!

anyway 2008 was full of memories and it was an awesome year for me! in academic wise and in social life! this year has to be better and i dun wanna torture too much of people around me!

im kinda finding for a part time job and wanna get it soon! the past few days i was veri confused and thinked too much about people! i just dun wanna get hooked on to people too fast and regret. for now i dunnoe wat to do with my life. im just gonna let things move on its own way. i shall not lament too much! maybe i shall be awarded the bitchy title again!

anyway wishin all my darlings a blessed new year and im missing:

sangee,yugan,kugan,durgoo,madie,clowny,junsulo,"kanjeries"!

must meet up soon darlings!

You've just stepped onto my territory.

I'm just a little nobody...
Saranya
18
26 August 1989
Single