| Saturday, July 4, 2009 |
This is you and me when we were so happy and we were so close as brother and sister but now everything is ambused. Thanks to that particular day and watever we faced that made u get so disappointed with me and i really regret doing it. i was high and didnt noe wat i was doing and the other one beside me had to make me do the mistake which i didnt expect to do and make you upset. its been 1 week since we spoke and the last we met was on thursday for your dad's birthday and you just sat directly across of me and u made my moment such a upsetting one. We kept on staring at each other and lookin away. I hated to be there. I just wished i never had such a regretful moment like tat or the best is when i didnt even have a simple common sense of not to do such a mistake. I thought you were ok with it since u also do it but yea, and according to sangee u told her everything about wat you felt and i seriously teared the moment i heard it. I didnt expect it to affect you so much and i will never want to bring a bad name to you because of this. At this moment when we are not even talking and calling each other and when i see u online or u see me online, we are just ignoring each other. i noe u would never read my blog and tat is why im bravely putting this up. i didnt show anything like we are not in good terms to any other cousin and i seriously aint sure how am i gonna face you every sunday for awakening and the moments we use to play catching in the centre and you use to pamper me infront of every one. getting all this is gonna be hard and now i noe onli S and S are gonna be your fav ones. I am no more in tat shoe, and as you said u will call me once u forgive me..i shall wait for the call..
but just to tell...the wait is realli killing me....
i whimper and cry into myself everyday since the day we fought and even the last moment when i hugged you was 1 hour before i did the mistake..i can still remember the moments...
seriously this is the most biggest regret in me.
even if ur starting to hate me or almost already hating me ...
i dunnoe..im speechless.. i dun wish to justify myself..
let things happen its way...
Walk to my grave along with your heart ♥ 10:02 PM
