I'm a dirty chocolate paper bag!


GAN , GAJAE, SHANKY AND ME!

SICKOS!
exams are a torture and its like a disease! this sem exam preparation is a killer..

Taxation is kinda ok...
Managing finance is so so there...
Planning,Control and performance management SUCKS!

argh! i just cant
absorb anyting from that subject!
all i noe that is the lecturer that i got realli cant teach and half the things he
taught was not relevant! kick him!

DEC is in 2 weeks time! everyday morning cheryl piggy gives me wake up calls
from school and that swine goes to school so early la! then i will go...lil while later shiva comes
and junsulo and then the set is complete and than all will talk and talk and talk and
how to study?! and cheryl mmotivates me alot by sleeping infront of me or talks to her soft toy!
oh god why do i have weird friends!ahahah!
BUT YEA they are a bunch of lovely friends!
hmm...my life is happi with this group but yeah...internally within me someone's missing in action!we all noe who.. - - - - !

apparently manythings that use to happen are not happening now..
times have changed and so have people..
attitudes changes so fast..no one's perfect i shall not complain!

i miss:

Chatting with sangee till 2 or 3+ in the morning..
For an anonymous call from kv...
Chattin with gajae..
My darlins...
COUSINS!
sec school classmates...
and of course not missing out my fren whom i miss so much!


*seems like u MIA...maybe u found the person whom u loved previously as your life partner
i shall not spoil the pic. enjoy..ignore me for all u care and all i care...i just realised your not a man of your words...

oh man!
its more of lamenting i guess!
exam fever is on and its super high..
last 3 papers and determined to score and make it to ACCA
its a do or dont!
SARANYA RAMALINGAM and my dad again emphasised
"saran...now we are all trusting and we wanna see u at where ur sis is"
OMG! haha...im stressed!!

im realli gonna mug 24/7 and even if i get white hair its oK!
hahah! so life has been ok for me..
kinda ok with school and shiva and cheryl...
cheryl and junsulo and somethings the twins...
hahah..the twins whom i claim hot rite? cheryl?
hahah!

anyway its been a week and im not realli missing much now at this juncture..
three days of tearing and im ok..haha!
cheryl gives up on me and my sob story..nowdays she counts cowebs instead of listenin to me!
sad!hahah!

phone calls have been lesser at nite nowdays..guess all are busi and besides i sleep fast at nite
these days..
i feel so tired so fast! yawn!
this is a stupid convo i had with my gal friend and i just realised relationships can be so skeptical..

fren: hey saran..i miss my guy la..

me: your guy? ur ex ah?

fren: yeah la..super cute but yeah such a romantic sweetheart

me: then call him and talk to him

fren: dun want...that ass will be romancing with that stupid bitch gf of his..such a slut..

me: why do u call her a slut when she did not even do anything bad to u? are u jealous!? but u were the one who wanted this breakoff..

fren:yeah becos i suspected that he was too timing me and he had so many gals as friends and how sure he wun be playin behind my back..

me: aiyah u dun wanna trust him then obviously u would suspect him besides just becos he have so many gals as friends does not mean he love everyone.once u suspect him u will start suspect him for everyshit and u should understand ur bf best.

fren: aiyah how to trust him..all the gals around him suck la.bitches!

me: sori babe..but ive no comments..think abt it!

fren: ur suppose to help me..help me la...u be my spy le..

me: NO! i dun wanna get involved sorri!

oh my oh my..sometimes relationship sucks.and i understand but whoever is my guy...im sure i will try to make him happi. try my best..haha!
ok tats it! till exams im gonna be a mad gal!hahah!

CHERYL IS A PIG!
i hate it when thin people say that they are fat!
u look like some kind of anorexic or blumic and yet u tell me your fat!
stop it la!
if ur fat then wat the hell am I?!

argh!cheryl just makes me eat so MUCH and that gal has one hell of appetite!
yesterday went to ajisen after much brainstorming of where to have lunch with shiva!
so me shiva and cheryl go there and ate so much! i even left half a bowl of noodles left
and that swine ate all and yet she said she was not full!
OMG! and that swine went to eat fried MARS bar! oh my
why people who eat more than me are thin and when i eat a lil i put on soooooo much!
i sometimes just skip eating but yeah!argh!
hate hate hate!

anyway its so boring to come school these days even though cheryl and shiva are here! mani is superbly missed by me!
i realli miss that ASS!
hahah!
exams are coming and im freakin out agaIN!!!!!!!

ok it realli sucks to be me now..
i just sent him down and thats it..
the last day im gonna see him..
the last touch..
the last kiss...
the last hug..
i wun see him forever i guess...
let me tell u baby...all the moments i had with u is still in my mind..
i cant never get it back i know..
im gonna miss u so much..
the tears i saw in ur eyes when u said bye to me..u controlled ur tears and me too..
i miss u and u noe and i noe..
i loved you..

ok for whoever is thinking wat is happenin in my life..nuthin much just some sad stories that ponder me..
anyway ive to get out of it! im gonna dread this feeling.i need to get out of it and concentrate in my exams,
god give me that strength and confidence. this sunday i was suppose to go airport but thanks to my mum she forced me to go for dance! argh! i just hate the idea of going to a place where i feel unwanted at! fuck!
i can just imagine in another 1 week;s time the whole class will be full and yeah i can just get the wondeful positive era that im so gonna enjoy my dance in...and whoever think that is true! oh please i was being sacarstic...sundays are just so my mood off days in the morning!
fuck and screw it off..
gonna go mug now..i skipped the class becos of mani but now i regret...

BLOGGIN is the onli way to release my stress i suppose!





saturday:





SIS GRADUATION!


had to wake up early in the morning which i realli hate!dressed up and went to Raffles city convention centre for her grad.the thing started onli at 12 but yeah she had to be there at 9am so mum and me followed her and mum and me went to have breakfast at BK!yummi!


then just trailed around till 12 and we got her a bear from precious thots since we forgot to get her a boquet! yeah then daddy came and now she's a full fledged chartered accountant! ACCA affliate! wohoO! and my parents told me that the next grad ceremony they attend should be my ACCA affliate graduation ceremony!PRESSURISED!haha! yeah they expecting alot from me. to be an ACCA graduate so do i wanna be one! im studyin hard to achieve that. i need to complete CAT first!! argH!!








sunday:





had dance in the mornin and yeah sister backed out a lil! she just had to and she has her reasons for that.i went for dance but i was just not myself. i just dun seem to mingle well with that environment and feel unwanted.maybe its just me and my thoughts or maybe its just some avoidance which i want.sigh.something's just a miss. sometimes i just wish i was someone else in dance. i go there in doubt and dun realli noe wat will happen.if u dun wann i shall leave not come and face it every single week.i shall not live in denial..



came back home and rushed to meet my sweethearts together with my sister at lil india cause that pig mani is vegetarian.went to gokul's to eat. damn full and the two souls were lamenting the whole journey that they were full and that i was to be blamed for that pigS! yeah then sis went to meet her date and then i continued my journey with these two piggys. mani and shiva and me were camwhoring a lil. pics up soon. yeah then went to PS to walk around. Nuthin much crapped around and then i and mani left shiva at the station and went to lil india station to find my sister. waited there for a while and both of us ended up arguing for some issues and later on some how he started his dodgy nonsense and tried to cheer me up. i did not wanna make things worst so was playin along wit him.
had fun with the two sweethearts!hahah!

he's leavin in another 3 days time...argh!

You've just stepped onto my territory.

I'm just a little nobody...
Saranya
18
26 August 1989
Single